I had held hopes
you’d meet me here.
after standing wet awhile
with
black-keeled crows
raking
the blue-veined fog
we’d have slugged
down the gravel road
to
the usual milkshakes,
our feet placing
the sounds of stones between our voices.
"This is the way the world ends / Not with a bang but a whimper." --T.S. Eliot, "The Hollow Men."
I had held hopes
you’d meet me here.
after standing wet awhile
with
black-keeled crows
raking
the blue-veined fog
we’d have slugged
down the gravel road
to
the usual milkshakes,
our feet placing
the sounds of stones between our voices.
were I anywhere
else
the sea winds
would’ve come in by now,
coughing
through trees
like an old man pruning.
like an eyeless rat instead
the brown air scrapes
the belvedere’s balustrade,
titters past me into
the chamber groping
for sweets.
I turn to follow
humming low
a hoyden to bring you satisfaction
a shy lass to drive you mad
and find you delectably unmoved,
two breasts steaming like dawn snow
(and perching there
two red-flecked grackles in the snow).
Darling, I shall winter here;
in these shaded vales shall I encamp with all my arms,
and once satisfaction
I have gained,
shall campaign with equal fervor
elsewhere.
I will cleave until the white ugly heart of your skull is barren and yet I shall love you to the uttermost days of my life.